Body image issues

I'm 35 years old most of my life I was relatively fit, exceptionally strong as in hercules strong. However, also passive even shy sort of a guy. If a thug picked a fight I would ignpre them generally unless they went too far in which case I'd make a fool of them no exceptions. However, ive always lacked confidence socially I just feel people don't seem to like me. So a few years ago i got fat then over the past more recent few years I lost 35kg so I'm actually pretty fit again but it made my confidence issues worse. Even after losing it again I feel anxiety to some extent. Nothing is wrong with me so don't be a jerk and suggest getting help. I just need sex for validation. So thats my problem I work 4 jobs I'm 35 like its hard to meet girls I often work friday and Saturday nights. So going out near impossible and prior to the past 2.5 years I was long term unemployed, studying at university and getting like temporary jobs followed by gaps constantly short of money. For the past 2.5 years I'm over employed. So I finally got a chance working for complete jerks... at the main roads department as a cadet and i got a second job at subway. I finished my cadetship super busy and high expenses so never went out then this year i left them got 3 near jobs casually just started a 4th job and I am unsure if one has fired me but I dislike them and have neen considering dumping them anyway so don't really care. So I'm super busy like and at the main roads department my coworkers tried to bully me I stood up to them but was for 2 years... long time... and so all this going on sure I succeeded but I am so busy I got no friends in a new town. I see beautiful women none talk to me I just its like I'm nothing and never will be. I'm saving money like 3 years ago i was broke, 2 years ago bank account empty. Today I got 34k. So i mean its more savings then I've ever had but I don't have love and this is the most lucky breaks I've ever had yet its not that great most people probably wouldnt like it. I work as a support worker in most of my jobs and one in a restaurant at subway but I kind of like it except for no free time due to 4 jobs. In my spare time I'm doing 20km per day 3-4 days a week plus weights every gym sesh and its sucking the life out of me but I'm getting fitter. I'm down from 124kg at 193cm tall to 88kg. So I'm healthy bmi but I want to be ripped... so i got to go lower. So like all this going on. I feel if I just get laid to a beautiful girl all my problems won't matter I'll have a reason for all this torture

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anonymous Body August 31, 2025 at 4:10 am 0 0