why i dont have future dreams

my mum asked what i want to be when i grow up,6 at the time. i say i want to be an astronout. she says thats unrealistic do you know how many australian people get chosen to be one of those? almost none. so i learn i pick up a different interest.now im 7 "what do want to be when your older" my mum askes. im already hidden in my fuxxy pink note book with a multicolored pen when i look up i say "a fashion designer. showing her the dresses i make in my note book. "that wont go anywhere in the future"......im now 10 wondering what the point in life is wondering if there is a place for me in the world that fits the narrative of my mothers approval...im 14 now in my peresent life..."what do you want to be when your older?" now what i truely wanted to be was everything at once,an artist,an astronamer,a criminaligist,a cop. but all i say is "i dont know" its not that i dont know i have thought.thought in detail where i want to go what i want to do but all my ideas have been beaten down,thrown away or "unrealistic" so is the job really the problem or is it just me? so now when i hear that question,i dont think,dont spead my dream,just a silent "i dont know" and thats not my fault...

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Elyssa Home April 28, 2026 at 4:04 am 0 0