Whatever

I can't stand myself. I know what a shitty person I am. I hate being vulnerable or depending on anyone for anything. My parents are over me, everyone is. I think the only people who I've trusted enough to talk to about how I am haven't cared about me enough. They all just left me alone, yet even still I so shamefully miss them. I'm so tired. I keep fantasizing running away, but where would I go? My life isn't bad enough to run away from yet. I know what clothes I'd wear, what route I take to get far, what to take, I have money Id take. But then what? I'll be homeless? Because I was sad? Isn't that just pathetic? I'm sure they'd be disappointed, my family I mean, but I think they'd get over it pretty quick. My friends would wonder why I didn't say anything. But yet again, what is there to say? I don't like living here? I'm tired? I'm sad? I miss them! That's so ridiculously stupid. They don't miss me, and the people here wouldn't miss me all that much either. And if the people around here would act like they miss me then they're faking. I don't even know what the hell I'm talking about I'm just sick of this and my lack of freedom and my daily routines make me dislike myself. Im selfish but I kinda wish I could act on my selfishness.

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anonymous Other June 24, 2026 at 11:14 pm 0 0