Vent-ish rant and stuff

I'm so sick and tired of being dismissed off when I vent. Like.. I listen to others without judgement, comfort them and everything, I'm their fucking emotional punching bag. But if I want to say anything, I'm dismissed off and just ignored. And being the naturally sympathetic person I am, the moment my venting becomes theirs, I get pissed, but swallow it and end up comforting them instead. Like, I'M FUCKING VENTING AFTER YEARS OF FEELING LIKE MY SUFFERING IS INFERIOR TO EVERYONE ELSE'S AND NOW I FEEL COMFORTABLE, BUT THEN I'M SUPPOSED TO COMFORT YOU?? ..I guess I'm dramatizing this because yeah, they do have more serious problem like abuse, emotional abuse and stuff.. While I'm just whining about sum not being able to express myself and stuff, always having to perform good and mature without ever living the life of a real, normal teen then being expected to be full of joy and whimsy than shit, miserableness, gloom and disintegrating into an sp2 under stress and a bunch of other stuff. And they think I'm 'crying over nothing'. Bitch, I'm not crying because you yelled, I'm crying because I can't fucking hold everything together anymore. Don't even act like the goddamn victim when you've been hurting me for years and forced me to swallow it down and make me feel bad for you instead. There were SO MANY CLUES. SUICIDAL IDEATION, YEARS OF LOW MOOD, NUMBNESS, IRRITABILITY, WEIGHT LOSS, INSOMNIA/SUPERSOMNIA AND BARELY BEING INTERESTED IN SHIT. YOU'RE MY FUCKING MOTHER, HOW DO YOU SEE THE SIGNS AND DENY I NEED HELP??

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M Other August 22, 2026 at 5:50 am 0 0