Tired of all the relationships I've ever had

This had happened to me for multiple times now and my last one was just recently and I'm just SICK of it. Being constantly told that a person "loves you" and getting overwhelmed by their love and care just to find out that they talk to other people is genuinely one of the worst feelings ever. The worst part is that most of the time, we wouldn't even be in a relationship yet. We'd have that "no label" relationships but they'd treat me as if I was their girlfriend. "I love you so much", "I miss you", "I've been thinking of you all day" then they'd hit me with the ghosting or me finding out they've been talking to other girls like.... What the fuck. And it would all happen right after they get something out of me.. I've accepted that someone could genuinely not love me unless more from me and I'd get less. emotional, physical, mental, sexual I GAVE THEM ALL OF THAT YET THEY STILL HAVE THEIR EYES ON OTHER PEOPLE. I read back text messages, realizing that they've been slowly disconnecting from me and seeing how dry they text compared from how they texted back then. But suddenly when I DO THE SAME suddenly they care, they wanna text a lot, they wanna say how much they love me and all that bullshit to start making me feel like they actually DO CARE WHEN THEY DON'T. I can't handle this anymore. Always wondering if there was something that I did wrong to make them not truly love me or if I should have given them more. Was I too boring for them? Did my body get too boring for them? Did I say that I love them too much or too less? What the FUCK did I do. When will I finally find someone that actually cares and accepts me.

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Q.E Relationships July 12, 2025 at 12:48 pm 0 0