Spoiled

bro i’m gonna go to hs after the summer break and my mom woke me up to tell me we’re going to the apple store later to get my grad gift and that it’s not a phone. i use my ipad more than any other device but it’s starting to get damaged and it’s 6 years old so of course i assumed it would be an ipad. then, my parents start telling me that i’m becoming spoiled and that my grad gift isn’t an ipad and i told them i don’t want a laptop i’d rather get a gift card which is also significantly cheaper but they said that i won’t be allowed an ipad in high school and i don’t get why i can’t just use my 5 year old chromebook which should work just fine. we already have like 7 computers in the house i’m sure i can use one of those and they’re calling me spoiled even though i’m telling them not to buy me things?? then they’re getting mad at me saying i have the most comfortable life and i said that to them i do but they don’t know how my life isn’t and then my dad is like “we’re with you 24/7” YOU LITERALLY HAVE BARELY BEEN PRESENT MY ENTIRE LIFE NOT TO MENTION THE HORRIBLE THINGS YOUVE DONE and literally u don’t know that i have undiagnosed depression and anxiety for like the last 4 years since i was 10. and i have some ptsd but u wouldn’t know and when i texted my mom asking for a therapist she’s never replied or talked about it and it’s been 2 months. everything in my life is eating me up alive and my entire family comparing me to others and making me feel horrible about myself isn’t helping. my sister bought 4 coach bags and you’re not questioning her. my brother still owes my dad almost 15k for his car. my other sister has done horrible things before that caused horrible consequences yet i’m the spoiled immature “underdeveloped” one? they literally said my brain is underdeveloped because i’m always on my ipad, my own mother said that to me. i have helped her with her ptsd and anxiety for months now and told her what to say just so my dad wouldn’t yell at her. and i’m the underdeveloped spoiled idiot child? just because i’m the youngest? when my dad left, i was the one keeping composure. i didn’t cry. i waited until i was alone because i didn’t want to worry anyone. when my mom had a panic attack, i was the only one crying but i waited until i was alone to cry. i care so much about my family for what? i’m seriously done trying and i don’t know what to do anymore.

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anonymous Home June 30, 2025 at 11:28 am 0 1