Should I stay or should I go now?

I am exhausted. I don't know why I tolerate manipulation and gaslighting just because I have abandonment issues. Every relationship that I get into, makes me suffer. I don't fucking know why I always attract men with avoidant attachment issues. I want to break up with him, that's what my brain says. But my heart says the opposite. I feel like I am the man in the relationship and I'm ALWAYS the one who reaches out every after fight.

I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder II and it really affects myself & my relationship with my partner, even with my family and friends. Despite this disorder, I still have feelings too. I know if my partner is being rude to me or not. I know when he is being offensive. I also know that this may sound cliche: I can't leave him because I love him. But I already know that he's not going to change for me. I will just suffer over and over again if I still stay.

He gives me the silent treatment every time we argue and as someone with Bipolar Disorder, it tortures my mind. I still have ongoing appointments with my psychiatrist and life coach tho.

This kind of feeling is killing me little by little.

I need help.

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Ellie Relationships December 25, 2025 at 9:42 pm 0 0