Our cats crossing the rainbow bridge

My little brother accidentally killed our kitten when he was jumping around for fun, not realizing the kittens were also running around the house. I want to blame him, but I don't. Because I know that he also feels guilty about it. There's nothing else we could do but as much as it hurts, we could only wait for the kitten to die. If only we were rich, we could have brought it to a veterinarian, but we aren't rich. This kitten is the third to die this month. For the past few weeks, two of our kittens also died because of different reasons. All died because we can't afford a veterinarian. Even if we ask for help online, it would be too late to save them. This makes me don't wanna take care of cats any longer soon. We still have other cats which we love so much. And yes, we would still continue to shower them love and show affection and take care of them. But if the time comes that they would soon cross the rainbow bridge and wee would not have any cats left, I think it would be best not to take more cats in because the pain and guilt they will leave behind would take over my mind and not think rationally. Don't get me wrong, I love cats, it's just that the guilt and pain is unbearable and we still have financial problems to solve. Until then, I would just like to watch cats and smile. Even I feel guilty watching animal videos and read about animal stuff right now because there's nothing else we could do to our beloved cats but slowly wait for them to pass.
P.S sorry for my bad English it's not my first language (?)

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anonymous Other May 25, 2026 at 10:52 pm 0 0