nothing surprising still feels bad

i can officially saw that i can't ever ever trust men now like just no men and friends these two things are never for me cuz i can never rely on anyone even if i try to they'll show me why i shouldn't welll basically its me im the one who is supposed to be understanding and nice and all , why should i be bro why can't i be vulnerable why , i can't rely on my friends anyone of them and men in my family omagwad don't even get me started. my father never he just doesn't cares as long as he is providing money i shouldn't be complaining about anything literally, ik we're not economically stable but bro im trying to do that im trying to make this family stable why can't you let me why can't you understand . and my friends none of them literally none of them want to listen to me they will do shit that will make me feel bad and when i try to communicate like this particular thing upsets me they'll just cutt off like whoa
At this point there was only a person who used to let me rely on them but now they're gone too how nice , my ex boyfriend literally that human was the only one to whome i didn't had to tell that please let me rely on you let me be vulnerable please he never denied anything but we're not meant to be together ig anyways im not gonna stop just cuz i got few shitty people in my life i love me mom i love my ex I'll make them proud im still grateful for everything and I'll always be , life doesn't gives you lemons life is literally lemonade so let's swim in it...

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jam Other April 22, 2026 at 1:51 pm 1 0