Not Good at Anything

I'm the most worthless, useless person. I'm not good at anything. I get tired of reading all this bologna about how everyone is good at something and then it'll give some sort of dumb example about how you could be good at standing on your head or something. Well who's going to hire you to stand on your head? Oh, well, you have to monetize this talent by making videos or something; but if you aren't good at making videos then it doesn't matter and how many videos of you standing on your head can you make before it's boring anyway? They'll tell you to invest in a video editor that you can't afford to pay because it MIGHT pay off but it more than likely won't and then you'll be in an even worse situation but everyone just conveniently forgets to talk about what happens if you fail (homelessness, bankruptcy, etc) "history" is all about the winners and it's easier for the winners to have a platform to tell you about how they won. Oh, but they failed hundreds of times. Well some of us can't afford a hundred tries. All of this is moot anyway, because I don't have even a useless talent that I could try to monetize. I'm mediocre at everything.

Then you also get advice about oh, you just have to work harder and train your skills to be good. It's all about hard work. It's your own fault if you aren't good at anything. You didn't put in the 10,000 hours! They talk about intentional or deliberate practice, networking with experts who can help you improve, etc. All of that takes time, connections, and lots of money. My degree was supposed to help me be good at something but I was one of those idiots that drank the Kool-Aid about how going to college will make you more employable. They forgot to mention you had to pick a worthwhile major and go to an impressive ivy league college, not some rinky-dink more affordable state college. Maybe all the smart people realized that you needed to choose something "in demand" but I'm stupid so I just thought a college education in anything would be good enough somehow (boy was I dumb). That's how it sounded to me when they brought up the employment statistics of people who went to college vs those who didn't and how with each degree, you would earn more. They made it sound like just getting a degree would be helpful. So I thought school and good grades were so important but even with my good grades, I was too stupid to realize that if I hadn't heard of any jobs in my field of study, that probably meant there weren't any. My stupid good grades and degrees have done nothing. After graduating with my worthless pieces of paper, I then learned that 50-80% of getting a job is networking. Good thing I made no friends while in college. Good thing I joined all those stupid honor societies that did nothing besides give me more useless pieces of paper and a pin. Good thing I'm a socially awkward idiot with no connections. Good thing I picked a stupid degree. T.T

I know it's all my fault for being an idiot. I don't know what I was expecting. Did I think that after graduating I would just find all these mysterious behind the scenes jobs in my major? Even if I had picked something worthwhile, it probably wouldn't have mattered much anyway because I'm shy, awkward, and not good at interviews. I'm not good at tailoring my resume to the job applications because I'm unimpressive. I'm not a good fit for anything. I'm terrible at multitasking, I'm not good in a fast-paced setting, I'm not a people person, I hate talking on phones, and I don't have experience in anything.

The jobs I've had have all been terrible. I know all jobs are terrible to some degree, but after a point, when your hours get cut because of Covid or they want to switch the job to part time or you find out the job wasn't really what you thought you were signing up for, you start to wonder why you even bother to stay there when it doesn't even pay enough for you to move out of your parent's house because the paycheck per month is less than the cheapest rent per month. Then you feel like an entitled brat for wanting to quit but you also wonder what the point is if you can't even afford to not be a mooch.

I just don't know what's wrong with me. Every job I've had has made me feel burned out after just a few months and I try so hard to do a good job but I'm just so useless that it doesn't matter. I'm never good enough. It feels like nothing I do matters. No matter how hard I work, nothing changes. I never get a raise or anything. My brother got raises at his job every year. I never got a raise, just additional duties to perform and maybe, when I was lucky, they would tell me I did a good job and write me a very nice letter of recommendation when I quit. I feel like I'm just going to be a useless mooch for the rest of my life and I wonder why I even bother. I have no talents, hobbies, friends, or anything. I just bring nothing to the world. Even if college had helped me get a good job, I feel like I would still be useless, but at least I wouldn't be a mooch. I'm just a failure. I can whine about the world but really it's all my fault. I should've made better choices. I should learn to be less shy and awkward but some days I just wish I was good enough without having to try and fail so hard.

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anonymous Work August 13, 2025 at 4:24 am 0 0