nat

i feel really really crazy, as in im being a crazy person. i get emotionally intense a lot of the time, and it bothers me sometimes. i hardly know you, but i think you are so beautiful. i think of you often. i don't want to idealize you though, i want to know you for as you are, the good and the not so great. sometimes i wish i could look into your brain and know what you think about, what annoys you, what you like. maybe it'll help me stop liking you, or maybe it'll make it worse. your energy seems very soft and warm and im really charmed by it. your eyes are so kind. i crave to see your smile and to hear your laugh. i really hope you like me as a person and want to talk to me. i hate that it would cost so much to be with you. i wish it was uncomplicated. i wish you liked me back. you might? or would maybe consider it, but you're strong on your principles and i can respect that. or im trying to, at least. it's hard. i wish we could say fuck it and give it a shot. but that's me being delusional. i wonder how long i will helplessly be like this. i really don't want to build an idealized picture of you in my head, im not trying to have this spiral into something too grand. i tend to be intense, as i said. im trying to cool down. i don't want to be dramatic and weird and off-putting. but it hurts. i cry sometimes about it. i don't know what to do. i want you.

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anonymous Crushes October 04, 2026 at 1:53 am 0 0