My narcissistic older brother

I didn't know my older brother growing up, I knew he existed and that's really about it. He's significantly older than me and lived in another country for a very long time. Long story short he's a narcissist. He lived with me briefly a few years ago and he moved out in a not great way. My mother always defends him. Despite all he's done I can't bring myself to hate him, he is my brother after all, but my mother always says I do. Truth be told I sometimes find myself wondering if I'd have done something differently could he have bothered to care about me even little? I know that the answer is no. He's a narcissist through and through, he never once cared about me, never had he said anything even slightly nice to me, never has he remembered me, he's always done whatever's convenient for him without regard for other. Honestly a big thing annoying me is that I know the way he's living he's going to die soon, I find myself feeling a tiny bit bad I won't be there for him when he does. Not that he's ever showed up for me but it would be awful to have to hear from someone else he's dead. I don't miss him because they'res nothing to miss. He sucks, I know he does. I think my mother's getting to me. Because I know I didn't do anything wrong, the only reason I didn't reach out in 6 years was because there's no reason to. He hasn't made any attempt to talk to me either and my life is much more peaceful without him. I just don't get what's wrong with me.

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G.H Home March 06, 2026 at 4:09 pm 0 0