Is this Karma

I wasn’t the best boyfriend. I made many, many mistakes and I do regret them and how they affected my girlfriend for the past year. For the past few months I’ve been doing nothing but trying to do better and more honest especially. I used to lie and hang out with friends without her knowing but now? I tell her first thing and same thing today. I told my girlfriend I was going to go out with my friends tomorrow and that was all it took to start an argument on how inconsiderate I am to her or how much I disrespect her for telling her last minute and hiding it from her. But I just confirmed it now??? Idk it feels unfair and all and it’s frustrating how trying to do better honestly makes me feel like an asshole just like before to the point that I wish I hadn’t told her instead for a better outcome. But can I blame her? As much as I want to spend time with friends, I need to reassure and I told her that I’d spend more time with her since, according to her, I’ve spending more time with my friends whom I see once or twice a month now. All I want to do is find a balance with them but here I am having to spend more time with my gf than I already do. It feels unfair but this is what I deserve after all. I guess this is karma so there’s nothing can do but make it up to her and let my friends go for her. I really just wanna spend time with my friends and value them too though. I don’t know. Is this reallly how it’s supposed to be?

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