Improvement Needed

I feel like I'm annoying and bothersome, how do I improve.

Everyday, whenever I wake up I am always checking my messages and notifications to see if any of my friends have texted me, usually its streaks or snapchat stories or just random notifications off tiktok. I quickly do my usual morning routine before texting in one large group chat with me and all of my friends are in, most of the time I don't get any replies unless later in the day (We all have the same timezone) or half of the time I end up spamming by accident with random bs I do throughout the day since I have nobody else to talk too.

We all used to call and voice chat often to play games or just talk but nowadays we don't really. I don't really have any other friends who share such same interests and I feel physically scared to even think of making new friends online. I have friends in real life of course, but they rarely message me too and I only talk to them during school and we're currently on break and I can't really talk to my parents about anything since we're not that type of family.

I usually talk about my interests (Sonic and Roblox) Stuff I find exciting or just stupid shit I see, usually some of them reply sarcastically or with something funny of their own. I even spam our tiktok groupchat with videos daily since it's like muscle memory. I draw art daily and show them, not hoping for praise but hoping to chat to my friends just for 5 minutes, even if they go offline seconds later.

I feel like I'm trying too hard and only pushing them away more. I just wanted to get this off my chest since I'm just so tired and bored. (And if you couldn't tell, yes I'm a child writing this)

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Sonic Friends April 07, 2026 at 12:38 pm 1 0