Im upset

Im really upset. I try to be confident but i know that Im actually really insecure about how others see me. And so currently, I live with somebody who I always look after and show respect to, doesnt show the same respect for me. I was always taught to be the bigger person but this led to me bottling up how I felt and undergoing the "I dont care" outlook when I really do care.

This person tends to tell me to shut up and I don't know if it's because I'm really annoying and no one bothered to tell me out of politeness or if this person just finds it easy to berate me. They dint treat anyone else like this. I care for this person a lot and its really upsetting when I'm told to shut up. I argued with them how I feel they always berate me and treat me with no respect and they started asking why I didnt bring it up sooner where I answered honestly that I was a pushover- and I started crying and I said I was also emotional.

This led to said person asking why I always box myself up into boxes like "pushover" and "emotional" and I got really hurt by that.

Another petty example is that we go to a class together and its easier for us to bring one bag. I exclaimed to them "im gonna borrow a pen" because all the other times it was alright and they said "because you said that, you cant borrow a pen" and I just felt so disrespected, I thought we were close enough that borrowing a pen would be ok but I guess I came off arrogant

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anonymous Other July 10, 2026 at 9:23 pm 0 0