I'M SUCH A FUCKING LOSER

There's this girl I used to be good friends with in middle school. But we went to different high-schools and didn't stay in contact. Recently I met her randomly and we exchanged instas and we've texted a couple of times. Around 10 days ago I also saw her randomly and we haven't chatted since. SO THEN WHY DO I WANT HER TO WANT ME? I CAN'T TELL YOU ANYTHING NON-SURFACE LEVEL ABOUT HER AND YET THE THOUGHT OF HER ALSO THINKING ABOUT ME WARMS MY HEART. THEN IMMEDIATELY AFTERWARDS I REALIZE HOW FUCKING OBJECTIFYING THAT IS AND MAKES ME WANNA CLAW MY THROAT OUT. I'M SUCH A COWARD ON TOP OF IT. I DON'T TEXT HER BUT WANT HER TO DO IT? WHAT KIND OF LOGIC IS THAT? EVERYTIME I SEE A REEL SHE LIKED I WANNA THROW UP FROM DISGUST AT MYSELF. KNOW I'M CREEPY AND WEIRD BUT I CAN'T STOP MYSELF FROM FEELING THIS. I'M **THIS** FUCKING CLOSE TO STABBING MY STOMACH OUT WITH A KITCHEN KNIFE TO GIVE THESE BUTTERFLIES AN OUTLET. I really hope this passes and i never experience it again.

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anonymous Relationships July 12, 2026 at 9:43 pm 0 0