I can’t do it anymore

I’m so tired of being stuck in the same fucking cycle every time I thought I was getting better I’m genuinely so miserable I don’t want to do this shit I feel stuck and I just want to be gone. I don’t feel any will or purpose or point and it feels as if I don’t love anyone . I’m spiralling and it just seems so empty and dumb but it’s everyday. I’m not trying anymore and it’s affecting my life in a way I’m not sure I can even fix anymore. People say stop thinking negative as if my depression is a fucking mindset when I’ve done that, I’ve avoided what I felt I tried so hard to be better and I’m constantly reminded that there’s no fucking point. I’m so hopeless and done and I want to escape but there’s no way out. I feel the most alone I’ve been in a while and I really just want this to stop. I’ve felt passively suicidal for a while but I just want to be a different person . I tell myself I’m going to improve but my body feels physically stuck in a way I can’t move it. I feel failure like it’s part of me and now I’m starting to think it is. This seems like a whole self pity thing but I think I’m just losing the plot and I don’t know how to get myself to do things. I delay every task as if it will wait for me and my brain is 24/7 just scrambled. It’s been 4 years this won’t stop

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anonymous Other February 12, 2026 at 4:28 pm 1 1