hate my life

i finally escaped a toxic friendgroup that would constantly belittle me and bully me, im still only in conttact with 2 of them. 1 girl is really kind and was also being bullied and the other is now my closest hg. i love them both but ive bene noticing my hg behaviour getting worse. lets call her B. B is funny, understands me and genuinely we just get along so well. before i left the gc she would be rude to me in call or around everyone else, i assumed she was just reading off everyone else but recently? her behaviour has gotten kind of triggering. she calls me an idiot, and has this competitive behaviour sometimes, she even bullies me about being bad at something. im not asking to be prasied but everyone around me is so mean, only my online friends praise me but some of them say really out of turn shit. im struggling with mental health and sometimes i tell B this before i go on call, a simple "hey im not feeling the best so i wont be 100%" i kind of expected to be treated better and get less insults but nothing changes. B can also be sort of insensitive sometimes, like, sometimes shes texting other friends when we're on call, or playing other games when we're playing a game, even once she was editing a video of everyone from the gc i mentioned at the start and i could hear everything, everyones voices that bullied and insulted me. im bad at confrontation but i feel so stupid and alone, i only have like 4 friends counting B, but she has so many, and she doesnt share her friends with me even though i share my other 3 friends with her. shes so smart and amazing and pretty.

sometimes i even find myself asking about everyone from the old gc, like are they sorry for doing that to me? do they care? they probably dont, i was bulied at school and out of school so theyre probably happy to get me out of their group.

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anonymous Friends May 27, 2026 at 1:26 am 0 0