GRADES

I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT MYSELF. I FUCKED UP MY RESULTS. I FUCKED IT ALL UP. I COULD NOT EVEN HOLD ONTO ONE THING THAT MADE ME STAND OUT. THE WORST PART IS THAT I HATE MYSELF FOR IT BUT MY PARENTS DON'T. THEY TELL ME IT IS OKAY AND THAT I DON'T HAVE TO TRY SO HARD EVERY SINGLE TIME AND I KNOW I SHOULD BE GRATEFUL FOR THEM BUT GOD KNOWS WHY THEY ARE GRATEFUL FOR ME? I AM SUCH A FAILURE. I HATE THAT THEY HAVE TO BE BURDENED BECAUSE OF ME, FINANCIALLY AND MENTALLY AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY ANYONE WOULD STILL CHOSE TO PUT UP WITH ME AND TELL ME THAT IT'S OKAY. I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT THEY ARE ALSO DISAPPOINTED AND THEY JUST CANNOT HANDLE SAYING THAT TO MY FUCKING FACE. I HATE MYSELF. I HAD SO MANY ASPIRATIONS AND NOW THEY ARE ALL FAR-FETCHED. I REALLY REALLY WANT TO END IT ALL BUT I DON'T HAVE THE GUTS TO DO IT EITHER. I AM SUCH A COWARD. I HAVE NEVER FELT SO PATHETIC BEFORE. I HATE THAT I EXIST.

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anonymous School August 28, 2026 at 10:14 am 0 0