My teacher hates me

I hate chemistry. More specifically, I hate the teacher that teaches me chemistry. I had him last year too, but this year is so much worse. I don't understand the concept and I'm not doing well in the class at all. I want to ask him for help but I'm scared of him. I feel like if I go up to him, he'll be annoyed with me and hate me even more. I used to enjoy chemistry last year. It wasn't a bad course. But this year, suddenly things changed. He seemed a lot more strict, he went a lot faster, and the course overall was so much harder. At the beginning of the semester, he told us to write this small sheet telling him about your likes, dislikes, and what you need to work on for chemistry.

I wrote that I didn't really like being called out. I've always hated being called out by my teachers. I feel stupid, and dumb when they do, because almost all the time I don't know the answer to the question. Everyone in the class looks at me and I just want to run away.

But even though I wrote that in my personal profile, he called me out today. Normally, I would just feel embarrassed and get over it, but this time, I felt like crying. I was already doing horribly in the class, but to make me feel even worse over this didn't seem right. I have mental breakdowns constantly because of this class, and I really wish that I can drop it, but I can't. I don't know what to do anymore. Chemistry is literally the only class I have this semester that gives me this much stress, anxiety and mental breakdowns. I feel perfectly fine in my other courses. I never looked forward to going to his class anymore. I would rather skip and cry then go. But I know I have to go because it's important for my mark.

I used to moderately enjoy chemistry classes last year, but this year my teacher has made me hate it. I don't want to do anything with it in the future, but I still have to bear it for this semester until I finish this course.

I just wish I could get another teacher, but I don't think that's possible.

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anonymous School October 23, 2018 at 9:53 am 4 1