My own problems

I’m a woman 22 yet can’t make friends, I got some deep trauma that’s left me with abandonment issues, jealous if that person who gave me attention pushes me aside to be more interactive with someone else. It doesn’t matter who I feel this towards, it happens every time someone shows me the slightest attention. I hate I’m like this, I don’t want to be like this. And people romanticise it?
I don’t show my jealousy, I just isolate myself away and blame it on “my mood crashed” because really no one needs to put up with me. Show interest in me in the slightest then boom I can’t control my feelings. I never told anyone I’m like this because everyone would hate me but sometimes I feel like they already do. I just don’t want to be like this, it makes me feel like I’m a horrible person even tho I keep it to myself. So much is so wrong with me. I just want one friend, one real friend who would be able to understand why I am the way I am. One person to not think my jealousy makes me a bad person, one person who doesn’t judge me but can see past that. It’s quietly destroying me. I’ve never done anything out of spite, I just feel ignored.

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Noname Other September 07, 2025 at 2:34 am 0 0