I am angry at God

I went to the temple today, but I did not pray to God. It is useless to ask God for anything because the opposite happens to me. God just does not listen. Two of the six houses needs repairs. I might have to book vacation time to get the repairs done. I do not get time to study enough because I am taking care of other stuff like chores and aging parents. One of the neighbors of one of the houses is being a real shit disturber.
People make faces at me, threaten me, verbally attack me and try to intimidate me. I hate raised voices and bad voice tone. People see the color of my skin and expect me to be a doormat. They think they can get their way with me. It infuriates me because as a human I deserve to be treated with respect. I am civil. I apologize and bow down to deescalate situations because I hate confrontations.
Some people make judgements just based on my gender and skin color. That is wrong. I did not steal my bus pass that I paid for (I was accused of that by 2 racist women). I am not stupid either. I had achieved a rank at the state Math Olympiad.
I am going to become Atheist. There is no God. I used to be the most God believing person.

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anonymous Religion July 12, 2025 at 9:50 pm 0 0