Life

I’m so fucking done with life I just want to die so much. They say it gets better but it really doesn’t, first I try my absolute hardest to get with a girl who plays around and talks to other guys behind my back, but yet she had our whole future planned out, which was the saddest part, so I had to end things there, that was Tuesday. Next, I notice my closest friend start to say much less and act strange, then my friend decides to “move on” and leave me even more crushed today. The worst part is I was so close with both of them and literally they were the only ones who ever ever talked to me, no absolutely no one does. Honestly I talk to myself much more than any human being now, as I head on my descent into madness and insanity. Idk what tomorrow will hold, I’m dreading it so much I hope I don’t wake up tomorrow. It’s supposed to be my graduation, so that means I’m going to have to pretend like everything is okay and act all fucking happy in front of everyone all day. I don’t know what to do anymore, I though life would get better as it went on, and it hasn’t been this bad in a while I was very happy for the last 2 months but now I’m fucked. I really wish there was a way to make yourself sleep and never wake up, I’d be much better off anyway, it’s not like anyone cares here. I’ve spent my whole life making people happy for them just to abandon me and walk over me. It’s depressing and is as much as I can take. It’s not like my own family cares either I’m going to have to be out on my own soon. Idk what to do anymore I’ve spent all day curled up in a ball not moving or eating or anything bc I don’t feel like getting up. This is fucking ridiculous, I just have to cry out and ask why, why the hell is it me that has to deal with this bullshit, with no one to help me ever.

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Anonymous Other April 26, 2024 at 12:22 pm 0 0